Sunday, August 30, 2009
शगल...........
ख़त खून से न लिख बैठा हो नादाँन,
हाथ कांपते हैं, खोलते हुए,
पर क्या करू,
ख़त ही मेरे नाम है........!
इस कदर नफरत हो चली,
उसे मुझसे,
की हाथ काट बैठा............
कहा करता था...........
उसके हाथों की लकीरों में,
मेरा ही नाम है...............!
मैं भी काटता रहता हूँ,
अपने हाथों अपना ही गला........
मेरा भी यही शगल,
यही अब मेरा भी काम है.............!
Friday, August 28, 2009
एक नया सुखन......
क्या बुरा था मरना जो एक बार होता...........
और एक हम........
इस कदर है पसंद मरना....
काश ये बार बार होता...........
एक तड़प तो देख ली,
तुझसे जुदा हो कर.........
वो दर्द भी देखते,
जब कोई खंज़र,
वाकई जिगर के पार होता.........
लुत्फ़ बढ़ जाता शायद,
और एहसास-ऐ-दर्द भी,
जब तेरे ही हाथ,
वो वार होता...........
दुल्हन.......
एक सुबह ऐसी ही गुजरी थी.......
पत्तों पे जमी ओस,
चमकने लगी है,
रात का स्याह घूंघट,
जो हट रहा है........
हया की लाली,
नज़र आने लगी है,
खुश हैं परिंदे...........
कि दुल्हन आने को है,
फिजा में,
फैलने लगी है खुशबू
सुबह बन के हसीना,
अलसाई सी है,
उठ रही है,
अभी अंगडाई ली है...............
Saturday, August 15, 2009
This was my turn
The moment,
When your silent smile,
Convinced me……!
Kept me alive……….!
Like I will be alive forever……
Till the day you beat inside………..!
Being the pulse…….!
Yes, I do remember
Do you do……?
Those promises, we made….!
Holding you, in my arms…….!
In those silent moments……..!
When you locked my voice,
Within your lips…….!
Do you remember……?
Those commitments……….!
You made with me……!
Aggressive, passionate, almost mad……..!
Those Promises to kill,
If being apart………..!
I remember………..!
Yes I do……..!
OK, tell me,
Though you are in my arms……..!
Why do I feel distance?
Thousand miles distance…..!
Even if you hold my hand,
Walk beside me…….!
And now what……?
If I see you going,
Away, far away……….!
Why…..?
I feel my breath stopped……….?
Feel the pulse disappeared,
It was you…..!
Are you nowhere within me…….?
Any more……….?
May be…….?
You follow those promises to kill,
So you kill me…….….?
But why so slow…….?
Why made it so painful…….?
You have been the kind most,
Just be once,
Once again………
Kill me,
Silently, fast, unfairly….!
Unfairly ??????????
Oops…………
I had to be you……..!
Yes this had to be me
Because this was my turn….?
A wish in the rain
It rained
Like never before
Just wished to walk
So was out…………
Beauty of rain,
In its sparkling drops,
Welcomed, open heartily…..
Don't know why,
But I am smiling,
Walking alone,
On the lonely road………..
Every drop
Refreshed my face….
Perhaps not my inner……..
Because……….
Felt like you touched me……..
With your wet hairs…….!
Was this you………?
Raining on me………..?
No…………!
You were so far…….
Hundreds of miles away….
How could you touch me………..?
Is it just a pain,
That made me smile………
Yes I remember,
You said that day…….
Pain makes you smile………..
Was I really smiling?
Yes I felt again,
That salty taste again,
Taste of tears………..
Raining along with……
Creeping on my cheeks,
Again.....!
Sorry....Disobeyed you,
Can't hold any more..........
That old taste,
That returns time to time….
When I miss you……..
When this distance,
Makes me mad………
It rained outside,
It's raining inside,
I am all alone…….
Just wishing…….
Come back Jaan…….
I am dying…….!
Monday, August 10, 2009
Blind nights 1
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Those blind nights 2
Those strange expression,
In you acts,
and,
When you said,
I feel sleepy.........
I felt broken,
All alone and tired.....
A question pounded inside me,
With every heartbeat,
Who was I.........?
Those sleepless nights,
When you said,
Good night,
And me too,
But half heartly........
Awakened, surprized
And waiting for your call,
In those dark nights.............
Nights, that have been,
Nightmares, time to time....
Making me realized,
That I am still.........
Five year's boy,
Scared of evermate,
Lonliness, my lonliness,
Surviving just within me.......
Though you said always,
You are mine,
But sometimes I find,
You nowhere.......
Nights when I saw my beliefs,
Dissolving, disappearing,
In my tears,
My silent moans,
Couldn't appoach you.........
I wonder,
Were you realy part of me......?