Sunday, August 30, 2009

शगल...........

बड़ा सुर्ख दिख रहा है लिफाफा,
ख़त खून से न लिख बैठा हो नादाँन,
हाथ कांपते हैं, खोलते हुए,
पर क्या करू,
ख़त ही मेरे नाम है........!

इस कदर नफरत हो चली,
उसे मुझसे,
की हाथ काट बैठा............
कहा करता था...........
उसके हाथों की लकीरों में,
मेरा ही नाम है...............!

मैं भी काटता रहता हूँ,
अपने हाथों अपना ही गला........
मेरा भी यही शगल,
यही अब मेरा भी काम है.............!

Friday, August 28, 2009

एक नया सुखन......

इक सुखनवर कहा करता था.....
क्या बुरा था मरना जो एक बार होता...........

और एक हम........

इस कदर है पसंद मरना....
काश ये बार बार होता...........

एक तड़प तो देख ली,
तुझसे जुदा हो कर.........

वो दर्द भी देखते,
जब कोई खंज़र,
वाकई जिगर के पार होता.........

लुत्फ़ बढ़ जाता शायद,
और एहसास-ऐ-दर्द भी,
जब तेरे ही हाथ,
वो वार होता...........

दुल्हन.......

कुछ सुबहें और शामे जिन्दगी भर याद रह जाती हैं............
एक सुबह ऐसी ही गुजरी थी.......


पत्तों पे जमी ओस,
चमकने लगी है,
रात का स्याह घूंघट,
जो हट रहा है........

हया की लाली,
नज़र आने लगी है,
खुश हैं परिंदे...........
कि दुल्हन आने को है,
फिजा में,
फैलने लगी है खुशबू

सुबह बन के हसीना,
अलसाई सी है,
उठ रही है,

अभी अंगडाई ली है...............

Saturday, August 15, 2009

This was my turn

The moment,

When your silent smile,

Convinced me……!

Kept me alive……….!

Like I will be alive forever……

Till the day you beat inside………..!

Being the pulse…….!


 

Yes, I do remember

Do you do……?

Those promises, we made….!

Holding you, in my arms…….!

In those silent moments……..!

When you locked my voice,

Within your lips…….!


 

Do you remember……?

Those commitments……….!

You made with me……!

Aggressive, passionate, almost mad……..!

Those Promises to kill,

If being apart………..!

I remember………..!

Yes I do……..!


 

OK, tell me,


 

Though you are in my arms……..!

Why do I feel distance?

Thousand miles distance…..!

Even if you hold my hand,

Walk beside me…….!

And now what……?

If I see you going,

Away, far away……….!


 

Why…..?

I feel my breath stopped……….?

Feel the pulse disappeared,

It was you…..!

Are you nowhere within me…….?

Any more……….?


 

May be…….?

You follow those promises to kill,

So you kill me…….….?

But why so slow…….?

Why made it so painful…….?


 

You have been the kind most,

Just be once,

Once again………

Kill me,

Silently, fast, unfairly….!


 

Unfairly ??????????


 

Oops…………

I had to be you……..!


 

Yes this had to be me

Because this was my turn….?

A wish in the rain

It rained

Like never before

Just wished to walk

So was out…………


 

Beauty of rain,

In its sparkling drops,

Welcomed, open heartily…..


 

Don't know why,

But I am smiling,

Walking alone,

On the lonely road………..


 

Every drop

Refreshed my face….

Perhaps not my inner……..

Because……….


 

Felt like you touched me……..

With your wet hairs…….!

Was this you………?

Raining on me………..?


 

No…………!

You were so far…….

Hundreds of miles away….

How could you touch me………..?


 

Is it just a pain,

That made me smile………

Yes I remember,

You said that day…….

Pain makes you smile………..

Was I really smiling?


 

Yes I felt again,

That salty taste again,

Taste of tears………..

Raining along with……

Creeping on my cheeks,

Again.....!

Sorry....Disobeyed you,

Can't hold any more..........

That old taste,

That returns time to time….

When I miss you……..

When this distance,

Makes me mad………


 

It rained outside,

It's raining inside,

I am all alone…….

Just wishing…….

Come back Jaan…….

I am dying…….!

Monday, August 10, 2009

Blind nights 1

Realy this was you only who made me realizing being live and tought me lession of colourfull life..............................
.....
Yes I remember,
When I was Sneezing,
You awakened all the night,
Holding my hand,
It was just cold for me,
But not for you.................
.............
Yes I do recall,
Brightness of those blind nights,
The night when,
Holding my hand,
You said straight,
Looking into my eyes,
'Shona' ham hain na................
........
Yes I miss,
Twinkles of your,
Sudden appearance,
You turned every cry of mine,
Into pleasent smiles,
Just holding my hands.............
..........
Yes I Miss,
You hold my hand,
Walked right beside me,
When I was 'Insomniac',
You made yourself also,
Just to be with me,
Desperately............
................
Yes I do remember,
All those moments,
You made me realizing,
Being a living, a human,
When you kissed me,
When you touched me..............
..................
It was night only,
That was with me,
Became Jealous of you,
Because couldn't love me,
More than you,
Left me every morning,
And you always being with me,
Always.............
....................
Yes I miss,
Your desparate calls,
Every hour,
When my loneliness,
Was to kill me...........
.................
Yes I miss,
Those Unforgettable moments
When People said me,
Psychic and abnormal.......
................
And yes still in my consious,
That limitless support,
When two hand,
Holding my hands said,
'Shona' you are just different............
................
I found myself live,
In those blind nights,
You were with me.............

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Those blind nights 2

Time has changed and you as well........................I do realize the change and my heart again scared of these blind nights............................
Moments of agony,
Those strange expression,
In you acts,
and,
When you said,
I feel sleepy.........

I felt broken,
All alone and tired.....

A question pounded inside me,
With every heartbeat,
Who was I.........?

Those sleepless nights,
When you said,
Good night,
And me too,
But half heartly........

Awakened, surprized
And waiting for your call,
In those dark nights.............

Nights, that have been,
Nightmares, time to time....

Making me realized,
That I am still.........

Five year's boy,
Scared of evermate,
Lonliness, my lonliness,
Surviving just within me.......

Though you said always,
You are mine,
But sometimes I find,
You nowhere.......

Nights when I saw my beliefs,
Dissolving, disappearing,
In my tears,
My silent moans,
Couldn't appoach you.........

I wonder,
Were you realy part of me......?